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Entries for November, 2003
I told a friend lately, "In love, you should always be ready to sacrifice anything for love, but both parties should also be ready accept everything that person is, as a whole. Life is so ironic isn't it?" I can't believe i said that  love sucks. It's nice to hear Patti Smith's Sometimes Love Just Ain't Enough . |
 Man, I've wasted TOO MUCH time doing my thesis. I should have been working now. I'm starting to feel shameful about myself because I can't help my parents on our daily expenses.Now where and how do I get a good proposal? I'm not sure. AMA professors are so damn meticulous on thesis proposals. Well, I did a good proposal. But the problem is, I can't do it. It's not that I cannot program, but I did not expect that my proposal would turn out to be expensive. God help me. It's nice to hear Orient Pearl's Pagsubok . |
I dont think I like the result. LOL. 
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 What Ragnarok Character Should You Be? Quiz by Angelhalo nice...   Your element is Air. You are an artistic person with a unique sense of style. You are intelligent; although prone to wonder in thought which, prevents you from paying full attention to most things, constantly active and most likely like to sing. Constantly moving the air is a force of nature. One moment you can be a breeze the next a tornado. What's your elementbrought to you by Quizilla |
 *stretches my back* I have nothing so much to blog for the past few days because nothing happened so much to. Why? I have been inside the house, in front of the PC, for the past 3 days. Now that makes me remember an entry on a message board... "Turn your PC off, go out, and get a life!"Ok ok ok fine. Tomorrow I'll go to AMA parañaque and get some good ideas on my thesis. And what else... I hope I got money to watch Scary Movie 3. hehehehe. Oh, I got an idea. Since nothing is happening so much, maybe I just blog here some of my past experiences that I may remember for each day. |
Could somebody interpret this for me? I kept having this nightmare over and over that's why I can't forget about it. Maybe I got this dream because watching too much zombie movies. lol. It was night. At my house in Makati, I looked outside our door. I was surprised to see that outside our house is a cemetery. and directly infront of our door, about a few meters away, I've seen 3 tombs on top of each other. and on top, is a Red Police Light thingie. Weird. Then zombies sunddenly appeared from below the ground. I shut the door, locked every window. Then I always wake-up after that. Watta nightmare. |
Yesterday, I went to Recy's computer shop in Quezon city. I went there to put some corrections on the server of that shop. But I made some boo-boos, and I left the shop at 10 pm. I still have to go home to Alabang, which is VERY far away from Q.C. When I'm about to go, the gentle rain pour down on the streets, so Ingrid (Recy's elder sister) lend me an umbrella. When I was only a few meters away from their house, the rain stopped. So I fixed up the umbrella and hurried home. But alas, when I got to Sucat- Parañaque, there was no more jeep going to Alabang anymore (it was already 12:30 am that time). So I was forced to walk about a 800 steps at least going home. On the way, I passed by a house, there were two dogs started running towards me and barking. The most common dogs I encounter would stay a few inches away from me while barking. But this dogs, I was surprised that went SO close in biting me. But with the help of that umbrella, I defended myself. I started hitting those dogs REALLY HARD on their heads. It's the first time I used my skills on arnis de mano, but using an umbrella? LOL. The stupid dogs scrammed away without a bite on me. TAKE THAT LOOSERS!   I was surprised on myself during that attack, I was so calm. Thank God I got home alive. It's nice to hear The Bangles's Manic Monday . |
I applied my new experimental layout. And oh, it's still buggy. gotta fix it. And still, I have to add more details. |
It was 3pm. Me and my cousin rushed to the colorum station going to Makati. I went home for a while to get my Aunt's credit card from my mom and I went straight to Recy's shop to talk about our "guild". A few days earlier, Recy's Ragnarok account have been violated. Most of her precious items and zennies (Ragnarok money) have been stolen. The good thing is, that hacker left the emperium on her Kafra storage. But because of this, she was now having second thoughts on playing anymore. So she decides to hand-over me the guild, and gave me the emperium. But to do that, in a week, the current guild would be disbanded.   I left Recy's shop at 9pm and went straight to the Philippine Daily Inquirer office in Makati, where me and my cousin would be fetch by my aunt. It's nice to hear Giorgio Moroder's Together in Electric Dreams . |
Three o' clock in the afternoon. I went to Roy's house in Parañaque City to give him some files I've downloaded from the internet like anime and h-games. Well, nothing much happened here. We watched TV, play pc games 'n stuff. 10:30 in the evening. I bid Roy goodbye. So I hurried on to the jeepney stop near Jaka. I was afraid that I might not get a jeepney again like last time and I don't to walk that long again and get barked at by that dogs again. But surprisingly when I got to the jeepney stop in the expressway, I saw my aunt's car on the side. I looked inside the car, but no one was there. I looked around, and I saw my cousin eating kwek-kwek (egg dipped in flour then fried) on the corner. I went near him and tapped his back then say, "Hey!  ". But he ignored me. It is because he didn't see me at first and he thought I was just some psycho pissing off everyone. But he was surprised to see me there. Then we got home.
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For some reason, I'm depressed for past few weeks. Most of the time when I'm handling such problems, I often think and think and think. Thinking, until I ran out of ideas and nothing was solved. Well, my friend Adz was right on what he told me, not so long ago: "Think fast. Give solutions quickly to your problems." I am a great escapist. When I have problems, I intend to go out with my friends, chat, or go somewhere else but home. I know this is bad. Really bad. Because when I get back to the real world, it all comes back to me. One bad thing I kept doing to ease my problem is sometimes by giving myself false hopes. I know that sometimes, there are problems which are impossible to solve. But used to tell myself, "Don't worry, time will come that... blah blah blah." Yet, I know that is not a solution to my problem. From another friend I learned to be smiling even I got a lot of problems. I watched Nico talk to my other friends, knowing he got a lot of heavy thoughts in his mind. I still haven't mastered that skill yet, but I am trying. I still believe that God did not give us problems that we cannot solve. And it will always be like that. Nobody cannot help us more but ourselves. P.S. Like what I said to Tere earlier, "Most of the time, truth hurts like HELL..." It's nice to hear Starship's Nothing can't stop us now . |
Yesterday, I got to Recy's Cyber cafe at 7:30pm because of the heavy traffic I encountered. When I got there, Tong, Nico and JJay were already there. Nico and JJay were fixing their own Ragnarok server, and because of that the shop should be closed earlier than usual. They continue fixing the server. I expected that it would be finished by 10pm. But no. Adz went home by 9pm, while I still waited for Nico to finish. Unfortunately, we got out of the shop by 6am.  As that day passed by, I've witnessed a stronger Nico than before. Hopefully, he recovers fully. Not only physically, but emotionally. It's nice to hear Neocolours's Tuloy Pa Rin . |
One time, I saw this entry on the ragnaboards forum. This post, it described how this game becomes a reflection of the Philippines society. Funny, I can see that somehow its true. I have been playing this game now for months, and compared to its international counterpart, this game sucks. Here are some problems on the game and its symbolic comparisons on the country's problem: Kill Stealing [stealing someone else' prey, which is bad because you are stealing the experience points which should been for the right person] - ALMOST everybody do this in the PRO. Some people doesn't care what other people may say. Kapal ng mukha nila e! Symbolically, this is called the CRAB MENTALITY. Everyone is dragging each other down to become on the top themselves, knowing that other people may get affected negatively. Lag [the network in state of heavy traffic] - My gosh! I hate it when this happens. There is a high possibility your character will get killed when this happens. Slow connection to the ragnarok server = slow progress to leveling up. Like the Phillipines, the economy itself is so slow in progressing. GMs (Game Masters) [the superior characters who manages, and keeps the organization of the game] - They are supposed to be keeping the peace and order of the game and answering questions from the players. They are all-powerful, but they also have limitations. A GM should not be giving-away items to other people and should not help nor interfere with game of the clients. But I know people who have seen corrupted GMs: tanking (To tank is a term where a stronger character helps a weaker character to level-up.), and giving-away special items to their friends. As a comparison to the society, these GMs are like those in the government seats. Blood is thicker than water. They favor their friends and families, knowing that being on the seat should mean that they should respect the equality of all members of the society. Oh well, I got sick of thinking other problems. Maybe you should go play that game to see it for yourself. The one good thing I see here is... I feel at home. Para kang nasa Pinas! (Feels like I'm on the Philippines!). **Walang ganyan sa States! lol |
