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I am a Computer science student. Can anyone suggest me some topics? Do you have anything (in work, school or anything) which is in need of computer automation? Any idea of a game, website, or utility you could suggest? I need your suggestions badly. thanks. |
YESTERDAY AFTERNOON. 3:00pm. I was about to get a new copy of my registration form from my school, AMACU and play Initial D with my friend Roy at SM-Sucat. While I'm on my way, my phone rang. It was Kim. She wants me to go with her at Dainty's house again. But I told her I cannot decide yet because I still have some things to do, and I'll just call her later. But when I got to the mall, I've called Kim right away to confirm that I'll be tagging along later on at 5pm. Too bad the Initial D machine is under repair. So me and Roy just went back to his home to do some computer stuff. I went back to Makati after a few minutes. Kim and I rendezvous on a MRT station in Makati, then rode a train to Cubao to catch up with Dainty, who was about to go home that time after seeing Madagascar with her dad and younger brother. Lucky they brought along a ride. It has been a rainy evening. We played card games (especially tong-its) all-night long hahahaha! It's nice to hear "The search is over" by Survivor . |
Yesterday, while I was on my way to Edi's house, In the jeepney where I was riding, someone tapped my back. It was a former classmate of mine back in highschool, Kenneth. A good-looking guy like before. He was happy to see me because THEY (he and my other highschool friends) haven't heard about me for YEARS. We had a little chitchat on the way, and I learned a lot how my former classmates have been for the past 7 years since we graduated. Some are unfortunate, like me. Some are trying. Others, successful. And they're still together all those years. Too bad I wasn't there. So I gave Ken my number so that he could contact me if ever there's some time we can hang out. -------------------------------- I went to Edi's place again to revive her dead PC. hehe. I'm sooo good at this. *yabang yabang* Naayos naman e  -------------------------------- I need some pressure to push myself HARDER. I still haven't finished a single proposal, and the deadline is near. |
Ano to yung sa musiko o yung ginagamit sa marathon? hehe. anyway, sagutan ko tong pinasa ni Edi, na pinasa sa kanya ni batits. *you're supposed to copy and paste it to your blog and answer it yourself. Total volume of music files on my computer: - 5.47Gb (1,438 MP3s) The last cd I bought was: - a playstation 1 cd Song playing right now: - "Emotion" by Bee Gees Five songs I listen to a lot lately, or that mean a lot to me: - "Alone" by Heart (80's band yun, not Heart Evangelista) - "Love me for a Reason" by The Osmonds - "I Can't Make You Love Me" by Bonnie Raitt - "I Wanna Know What Love Is" by Foreigner - "The One You love" by Glenn Frey (Napansin nyo puro bago noh?) Five people to whom I`m passing the baton: Di ko na lang ipapasa, wala naman yata nagbabasa ng blog na to lolz. --------------------------------- Galing ako sa school kanina, baka may kailangan sabihin si Ma'am Rose about our thesis. So nalaman ko na 5 dapat kami sa section na yun. 5 ang Officially enroled. May 2 enlisted pa lang (meaning, hindi officially enrolled), at may isang magdadrop pa pala dun sa 5. So, 4 lang kami ngayon: 2 IT, 2 CS. Nag group na yung 2 IT. Kaya naman kinausap ko na kanina sa phone yung isang CS, at titignan namin kung ok kami mag-group. Deperado na ko. Bahala na. Magkikita kami mamaya sa school ng 10am. --------------------------------- May God help us help ourselves. Yan ang dasal ko araw-araw ngayon, at yung St. Francis' prayer. It's already June 7, and the deadline of proposals is on June 15-17. The pressure is on! It's nice to hear "Goodbye Girl" by Bread . |
Nabasa ko lang to sa isang tabulas blog somewhere... THE SACRAMENT OF WAITING by Fr. James Donelan, S.J. The English poet John Milton wrote that those who serve only also stand and wait. I think I would go further and say that those who wait render the highest form of service. Waiting requires more discipline, more self-control and emotional maturity, more unshakable faith in our cause, more unwavering hope in the future, more sustaining love in our hearts that all the greatest deeds of deering-do go by the name of action. (Read More) ------------------------------------ I've been waiting for you. And I can wait forever. ------------------------------------ Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres. Love never fails. But where there are prophecies, they will cease; where there are tongues, they will be stilled; where there is knowledge, it will pass away. Corinthians 13:4-8 |
GOOD NEWS FOR ME. I've just received an e-mail last night from my thesis adviser telling us, her students, that the submition for the approved proposals are extended up to June 27. That was good, but on the other hand, we have to take up a written exam this week. DUH?! I don't know what's the pupose of that exam. It only slow us down. Why don't they just let us do our stuff instead of doing such nonsense? This is thesis, and we have a alot of programming and documentations ahead. And I don't really know what are those exams for. On Tuesday, I have to go to school to get my exam sched, and ask my adviser if I can get a partner for my proposal. Because if I can, Roy would enroll (since I already convinced him yesterday). But I have to ask our dean if they accept late enrollees. I told Roy yesterday that I want to get out of AMACU with him as much as possible. Anyway, thank God for giving me more time. -------------------------------- Happy Independence Day! Since it's Independence day, I had a hair cut ala Emilio Aguinaldo again
I have been reading Apache Installation Guide . |
I'm not really sick (or am I?) I don't know. I'm not sure. But I feel so tired. Maybe I got over fatigued. The truth is, I haven't got enough sleep since I started doing thesis. My eyes are getting blury now. My butt aches, so as my shoulders. And besides that, I feel something's very wrong with my body. I don't feel very well since 2 days ago... --------------------------- So every afternoon, I make it a point to meditate somewhere I can be alone: on a park or church. Yesterday, I was beside Pasig river, staring at nothing. My mind was a million miles away. --------------------------- I haven't talked to any of my friends lately. I missed them. That show, i-Witness really rocks! |
Argh! I can't concentrate fully on my thesis! A lot of distractions and temptations surround me. Now how can I focus on what I am doing? I don't know. I've already deleted all sort of games in my hard drive. ----------------------------- Got colds since yesterday. My body got weaker because of restlessness. ----------------------------- I love my MP3s. They keep me awake at sleepy moments. ----------------------------- Thesis update: I haven't submitted my program description. My prof needs me to approve it first before I started doing the rest of the proposal. I've only finished 1 paragraph so far, because I was busy doing a sample output on Visual Basic 6. And my gameplan is, I will base my program description from that sample output. So far, I think my sample output is about 40% finished. And I think I'm consuming a lot of time doing that. God help me. ----------------------------- FOCUS BENNY! FOCUS! DAMN IT! WHAT'S WRONG WITH YOU?! *slaps myself* ----------------------------- Sabi ni Kim, lagi na lang daw ako ang nakikinig at hindi pinakikinggan. Parang ganun din sabi ni Edi sa kin dati a. Sabagay, hindi lang sila ang nakapuna nyan. Marami na. Ewan ko ba. Ganito ako. May ugaling kinikimkim na lang sa sarili ang mga sikreto at problema hanggang sa mamatay ako. Pero ang hirap din, parang sasabog ang dibdib ko. Gusto ko man i-share, pero parang laging may nagsasabing kaya ko to mag-isa. Ayan tuloy, mag-isa na nga lang ako. |
10 days more before the deadline of my proposal. And I'm still not sure if it would be approved or not. I'm still aiming for my software description (the first part of my proposal). I have to present this first to my professor to make sure if I could continue doing this program. ------------------------------- Later on, I would have to get a copy of Visual Studio .NET from my cousin. Then I have to go to school to ask my dean about Roy (refer to past entries). And I have to meet Roy. And then I have to go to Recy's shop to get some cd's again. MAN! This will be a very tiresome day. Then on Saturday, I have to fix PCs on Ron's uncle's office. ------------------------------ A few nights ago, I dreamed that I have long hair, and braided just like a Jamaican. I also got facial hair. And that's all I remember. HAHAHA! ------------------------------ It started a few days ago when I hangout beside Pasig River. It was a cool place to reflect on. While thinking, I was drinking milk. Yes, milk. Hehehehe. And I have been hanging out on that place while drinking milk. ------------------------------ Nostalgia have been attacking me for the past few days. Sometimes, I instantly day dreaming and remembering what happened in my past, regreting some things. ------------------------------ May kausap ako kahapon, nagsesenti. Ang akala nya di ko sya nauunawaan. Pero ang totoo, alam ko ang iniisip nya. Kasi, pareho lang naman kami. Hindi nya nakita yun. Hindi nya nakita na nalulungkot din ako ngayon. Amp ka! ------------------------------ OMG it's already past 2. And I have a busy day ahead. ciao! |
I took a day off yesterday from doing thesis. I needed a break or else, I'll go crazy. ------------------------------ Yeah! Yesterday I've beaten up the first car in Akagi course (in Initial D arcade driving game.) And this is my car:  It's a IMPREZA WRX Type R STi Version 5 [GC8], Bunta custom. Great car, fast and good handling. Roy was really surprised how fast it is. Too bad I can't have that car in real life  But I love my ride.  --------------------------------- Then I went to Recy's place. They really did missed me, especially Bible. Kawawa na naman mukha ko, bugbog sa kurot. |
It's has been 3 days now. I realized that I have not been working on my thesis (harharhar). Last Saturday, I've worke on Rapid Air Freight's PC. I thought that it would be just a snap, but it took me hours because of unexpected circumstances. It was always like that. When I fix PC for that company, when I am almost finished, a very hard problem would occur. Always. I almost flipped out on the last problem because I did some stupid boo-boos. Luckily, I thought of an idea how to solve it. I went home past 1 am. What do ya know... I'm now their official tech support and computer technician. hihi. ---------------------------------- Ron and I have been always talking a lot of things about nothing in particular when I fix PC for his uncle. He asked something about my past, and unintentionally opening some bad memories. About my father. And I openly told him about how me and my dad have been. How we were was a very sad experience. I was a battered child back then. But still, for some some reason, I still love him. ---------------------------------- I haven't greeted my dad, "happy father's day". I hesitated. But I wanted to. So I just bought a roasted chicken for dinner. I still, I failed to tell him. Happy father's day, Papa. ---------------------------------- To my friends: Pag namatay ako, pakisabi na lang sa family URL nitong blog ko. Thanks. LOLz. ---------------------------------- When I started to do thesis yesterday morning, I had a lot of ideas coming to my head. Maybe it's because I got refreshed. ---------------------------------- Thank you Lord for everything I have right now. There were a lot of things going on right now, and most of the time I forget about you. But you never abandon me. It's nice to hear "Take me, I'll Follow" by Bobby Caldwell . I have been reading thesis lectures . |
Yesterday, I took my prelimenary exam for my thesis. I was a little doubtful that I would pass because I didn't study. So I went to school bearing only my pen and a reviewer (which I didn't read) and only studied a few minutes before the exam. I even forgot to get my test permit (which I will do later today). Miraculously, I passed! Funny, it was only 35 items. Do you call it an exam? It was just like a quiz for me. ------------------------------ hahahahaha I really love Initial D. I'm getting better! ------------------------------ Later, I have to go to school again to show my prof my test permit. Then I'll go straight to my Aunt Mely to get some money to fix a broken cellphone. ------------------------------ Sinubukan ko ulit magragnarok. Nag-load ako ng 1 hour na card, at tinignan ang mga pagbabago. Sa tingin ko, lalong lumala ang sitwasyon. Ayoko na talaga maglaro nun. Magbobot na lang ako ------------------------------ By the way, my aunt was asking me if I would want to enroll on Arts Academy. That sounds interesting. But why would I? I'm not really an artist, but I know how to draw a little and do some digital arts. So why not? right? Anyway, she would pay for my tuition, if ever. I love my aunt. |
Kanina papunta ako sa bahay ng tita ko sa Alabang Hills at sumakay sa isang jeepney na nag-aabang ng mga pasahero. Nagbabayad na ang mga pasahero at ang mamang tsuper ay paulit-ulit na sinasabi na P7.50 na ang pamasahe. Napansin ko lang na walang nakapaskil na fare matrix sa jeep. Kaya naman nagmatigas ako, at nagbayad ng P5.50. Napatingin sa akin ang jeepney driver. Nag usap kami at nagsigawan na... Tsuper: "P7.50 na po ang pamasahe..." Ako: "Pero ang pagkakaalam ko, bawal po maningil ng 7.50 kapag walang nakapaskil na fare matrix. Nasan na po ang fare matrix nyo?" Tsuper: "Andito." Ako: "Nasan? Ilabas mo!" Tsuper: "Andito nga sabi e! O Eto ang 5.50 mo. Sa iba ka na lang sumakay!" Pambihira naman talaga. E tinatamad na kong mag-abang ng ibang jeep. Kaya binayaran ko na lang. Baka kasi umiyak pa si manong e. Sa akin lang e di ako nagpapalagpas ng mga bagay na illegal. Maaring pagmultahin ang mga jeepney driver na naniningil ng ganung pamasahe ng walang fare matrix. Neo: I know kung fu! Nevermind. ----------------------------------- Malay mo, headline dapat mamaya: "Lalaki, dinedbol ng tsuper dahil sa P7.50" |
Here I am again, sitting in from of my PC, doing thesis. ------------------------------ Yesterday, I was supposed to go with Kim to University of Makati. But something came up. And when I got to her house, she's gone. She already left without notifying me. I I just went to Makati Cinema Square to kill some time. ------------------------------ On the Square, I bought some Korean DVDs: My Sassy Girl (my 6th copy) and I still don't know the title of the other one which stars Vivian of Lovers in Paris. Why do I keep buying My Sassy Girl CDs? I own 3 VCDs and 2 DVDs already. But each of them have defects. A few minutes after I bought those CDs, a raid happened at the mall. Every pirated CD store owners rushed to hide the evidences. Everyone panicked. ------------------------------ Later on, I fetched Kim from her school. I was surprised to see her on that gothic outfit again. Actually, it should not be a surprise afterall. I found her waiting beside the fountain at the park in front of the school. ------------------------------ I've been tryong to avail Smart's 25/8 offer. That unlimited text messages for 4 days. But I have no luck. Crappy service. ------------------------------ I have proven that I'm just a little paranoid about the cold treatment from some of my friends. Silly me. ------------------------------ I went to church yesterday evening  ------------------------------ I learned that talking to nobody about your problems can make go loco.  ------------------------------ Even if people forget your good deeds, just do GOOD. You'll be rewarded handsomely in heaven. It's nice to hear "What a wonderful world" by Louis Armstrong . |
Nagkakasakit na ko sa thesis na to. Gago rin kasi ako e. procrastinator. Ayan tuloy. Ilang araw na kong puyat. 3 days more to go before that deadline. And I'm only halfway through it. --------------------------- I haven't slept yet because of this @_@ and Coffee is my best buddy right now. --------------------------- There are friends you treat as your "best". But you never know if they also think of you like that. Maybe they'll tell you that you are, but still you can't feel it. Sometimes you feel that it's just a one way relationship. And the sad thing is, you can't do anything about it. Ganun lang talaga yun. Don't be angry to him/her. Life goes on. |
2 days to go, and I am almost finished with the proposal. But there is another problem, my professor told me that she won't be at school later today. So that means she can't sign my papers, although she could check for corrections through email. But I needed my documents to get fully signed up by Monday or ELSE... I'll get -10 points per day I'm late. I'll send my documents to my prof when I'm done. And I'll ask her if I could still get a thesis partner for this one. If yes, then I'll get Roy. ---------------------- Later in the morning, I will go to school and ask the dean if Roy could still enrol even it's very late. Anyway, It's just thesis, and there are no classes for this one. ---------------------- I'm tired. Yesterday morning, I slept at 9am, and woke up at 11am. Then I got another 3 hours of sleep in the night. ---------------------- A few days ago, my mom went home and gave me a piece of paper...  hmm... |
SCARED. So I have submitted my thesis proposal last night to my instructor. But she didn't reply. But I can't blame her. So I will be seeing her later today, and I hope that my papers will pass smoothly through out those thesis advisers. So today, I would need my professor, my 3 thesis advisers, and the dean to sign up my papers or else... I'm a little scared, but I'm optimistic. God help me. ------------------------ THEN GOD SENT HELP... I've been trying to install PHP 4, MySQL 4.1, and Apache 2.0 to my pc but still I can't figure it out. But God sent help. An old classmate of mine IM'd me at Yahoo! Messenger and asked me if I was doing my masteral. LOL! But I honestly told her that I still haven't graduated yet. So she was curious about what am I doing for thesis, and she was surprised that I'm doing PHP and MySQL, because that is her specialty. Thank GOD! She help me throughout the installation. But of course, I've encountered some problems which I should solve by myself. So I looked for answers in the net. And then I got an I idea. I looked for answers in chatrooms at IRC. And some American guy and an Indonesian guy help me out of my problem. Well at least I got those programs running now. Now I have to learn how to use them Thank you Lily, Ohio guy, and Indonesian guy  ------------------------ FOR THE RECORD: I woke up yesterday morning at 10am to do my thesis. I kept doing it almost non-stop trhe whole day. And I am now just about to sleep. It's already quarter to four. I'm tired. And I have to wake up at 6am. |
Yesterday afternoon, I passed by Roy's office in Makati. Roy and I went together in AMA Computer University in Parañaque to ask favor to the school officials if Roy could still enrol. So I tried asking the nice guidance counselor, and he said roy could! Then I talked to my thesis adviser about my newly recruited ally. But she was talking about this school rule called "mentor system". The class has only 5 officially enrolled students, and one dropped out, which made us four. If another student would enrol, that new student should pay a tuition fee with an amount of the total tuition of the 4 students (a 3-unit subject is worth 8,000 Pesos, multiplied by four, is 32 thousand). Now that's a crap, right? No one didn't explain us WHY is there such rule. It doesn't make any sense at all. But anyway, I asked the guidance counselor to confirm about the rule. He said, "That's ok. I'll handle it. Just get enrolled." He meant that Roy can enrol with the normal tuition fee. That guy is really really nice to us. So Roy enlisted, but not officially enrolled because he doesn’t have money that time. But that day, we went home with our papers unsigned. There’s still a lot of corrections to do. And I did it when I got home. ----------------------- On the next day, Roy went to school with the print out of the documents. And I came there to get the documents signed up. Roy got officially enrolled and our documents got signed up by two thesis advisers without sweat. The process only slowed down when we went to ask for Matt’s signature. He looked for more corrections, and it took for almost an hour. It’s almost 1pm. He gave us back the documents with red marks. But thank God! I’ll only have to do some minor corrections only. But Matt’s going home at 1pm, which means that we will have to wait another day again to get signed up. well at least Matt assured us that our proposal is already approved.----------------------- I went to church after that to thank HIM. I gladly showed him my red-marked papers ----------------------- Kagabi nilagnat ako. Ubo, sipon, at lagnat. Inutusan ako ng aking ina na bumili ng gamot sa Mercury drug. Nung palabas na ko ng bahay, tumawag si Kim sa bahay. Samahan ko daw sya dun sa labas ng bahay nila. Naisip ko na mukhang maglalabas lang ng sama ng loob to, kasi may problema tong kinakaharap sa pamilya nya. Kaya naman inuna ko syang puntahan, at alam ko namang may malapit na Mercury Drug malapit sa kanila. Nakarating ako. Nakita kong kasama nya rin ang kanyang nakakabatang kapatid na babae. Ayun, kwentuhan. Hingahan ng sama ng loob. Kaso nung pauwi na kami, umulan ng sobrang lakas. Naligo sa ulan ang nilalagnat kong katawan. Pero ayos lang  Nakabili naman ako ng gamot pagkatapos nun. |
Kahapon, nagbalik kami ni Roy sa AMACU para tuluyan ng mapirmahan ang thesis proposal namin. Tulad ng nabanggit ko sa huling kwento ko, medyo may sabit kami dun sa huling thesis committee, pero mga minor na koreksyon lang naman ang kailangan at wala nangpinadagdag pa (thank Lord!) Kaya naman, may 2 pirma na ng thesis committee, at isang adviser. Kailangan na lang ng pirma ng dean at school director. Hinanap namin ang dean. Napansin ko kasi na kapag hinahanap ko ang dean, lagi syang nawawalang parang ninja. Tinataguan ata ako. tinanong namin sa mga kapwa katrabaho nya kung nasaan sya. Ang sabi nila, baka may klase. hinanap namin ang silid-aralan nya. Nakita namin, pero ang sabi ng mga istudyante, lumabas raw. Hinanap namin. Sa aming paghahanap, nadaanan ko ang aming guidance counselor na matagal na ko nang sinisipsipan (feeling close na nga ko e). Tinanong ko sya, "Sir, nakita nyo po ba si Mr. ******?" Nagulat sya sa tanong ko. Kasi naman, sya pala si Mr. ******, ang aming dean! At hindi sya ang guidance counselor, tulad ng akala ko. Napatawa na lang sya. Potah nanliit ako sa kahihiyaan. Palibhasa kasi, 2 taon ako nawala sa paaralang yun. Sumisipsip ako sa taong di ko man lang natanong ang pangalan. Kasi iba ang dean dati, at sya ang guidance counselor dati. Pero at least kompleto na pirma ng proposal ko. Pero nakakahiya talaga. hehehe So nagcelebrate muna kami ni Roy pagkatapos nun. Tokyo-Tokyo kami kumain at nagpakasawa sa unlimited rice. Nahawa ata ko sa sakit ni Roy amp! Inuubo-ubo na ko. -------------------------- Nung papauwi na ko sa bahay, dinaanan ko muna si Kim sa bahay para pahiramin ng History book at sinamahan sya bumili ng pirated audio cds sa Makati square. Dami pirata talaga. At tumambay kami sandali sa maliit na mall na yun. Wala lang. -------------------------- Pagkatapos nun, pinuntahan ko si Tong sa bahay nya. May concert kasi ng M.Y.M.P. sa baranggay nila. Fiesta. Sowsi talaga ng baranggay nun. Pinanuntahan ko sa bahay pero wala pala sya. Sasama dapat si Cindy ang aking alaga, pero sinabi ko na lang na hindi tuloy, kasi wala si Tong sa bahay. Tinamad na rin ako manood. -------------------------- LORD, I am already thanking you now even I'M JUST ABOUT TO START my thesis. Thank you for my health, and giving me another chance to get back to school. Thank you because I am surrounded by people who are ready to help me anytime. Please Lord, let me graduate so that I can help my family and restore my pride. I believe in you. AMEN. |
