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The more you get closer to God, the greater the temptations and tests it becomes. Ang hirap. -------------------------------- Last night, while I was home, doing a webpage, a minor earthquake shook the whole Metro Manila (and Mindoro, I think). It's nothing serious though, but what's surprising is that it took more than a minute before it stopped. It was a little scary. I got dizzy afterwards @_@ Virtigoooo... -------------------------------- My comment about Rustom Padilla's confession: It takes a true man to admit that he [himself] is gay. Ah... the paradox... -------------------------------- I hope Sarah feels ok soon  I don't want my friends feeling sad.-------------------------------- by Garry Valenciano (Bagets OST) Here’s to the old times and the best of new ones Here’s to a song of glee Finding our way from illusions to realities Hoping to wake up from this madness Hoping to see you smile Pushing our way to the limit of yours and mine I’m growing up, getting down Putting my both feet on the ground With all my friends behind me How can I go wrong this time? I’m growing up, getting down Think of reality came around Not just waiting for the daybreak Expecting the sun to shine It doesn’t shine all the time Falling in love, falling apart You think it’s the end of the line Holding hand while crying, then you’ll feel just fine If you’re thinking that you’re the only one Well, take a look around and you’ll find I’ll be there where you are Then and now, I say I’m growing up, getting down Putting my both feet on the ground With all my friends behind me How can I go wrong this time? I’m growing up, getting down Think of reality came around Not just waiting for the daybreak Expecting the sun to shine It doesn’t shine all the time Here’s to the old times and the best of new ones Here’s to a song of glee Finding our way from illusions to realities Hoping to wake up from this madness Hoping to see you smile Pushing our way to the limit of yours and mine I’m growing up, getting down Putting my both feet on the ground With all my friends behind me How can I go wrong this time? I’m growing up, getting down Think of reality came around Not just waiting for the daybreak Expecting the sun to shine It doesn’t shine all the time It's nice to hear "Growing Up" by Gary Valenciano (Bagets OST) . I have been reading The Purpose-Driven Life . That show, Spongebob Squarepants really rocks! |
Thank you very much oh Lord, for another day have passed with your protection, love and blessings. |
May mga close friends ako na nagtatampo sa akin. Nababasa kasi ang mga blogs nila lagi, hindi nila siguro alam. Nagtatampo sila kasi akala nila iniwan ko sila sa ere. Marahil akala nila na marami na akong ibang kaibigan at sila ang lagi ko na lang kausap o kasama. Marahil akala nila wala na akong pakialam sa kanila. Hay. Mahigit kumulang na dalawa hanggang tatlong buwan siguro ako na hindi nakakita, o sobrang bihira na nakakita ng kaibigan. Noong mga panahong iyon, sobrang busy ako sa thesis at tiniis ko na hindi maglakwartsa o makipagbarkada para lang makatapos ako, at hindi naman ako nabigo. Pero hindi nila alam na sobrang lungkot ko noon. Kasi nasanay ako na lagi na kasama ko sila. Sobrang miss na miss ko rin sila. Nadagdagan pa ako ng trabaho nung magpagawa ng thesis ang aking kapatid. Sobrang ring wala na akong pera ngayon. Taghirap ba. Pinili ko na lang na hindi maglakwartsa at manatili na lang sa bahay. Kung itatanong nyo kung bakit hindi ko na lang itext o tawagan, mahirap rin. Basta. Malamang, kung magkita man kami (sana ay mangyari), marami akong dapat ipaliwanag. Ewan ko kung makikinig pa sila. Nalungkot lang talaga ako sa mga nabasa ko sa blog nila. Di nila alam na halos mabaliw baliw na ako ngayon kasi wala na akong ibang makausap. Baka mamaya nyan nagsasalita na akong mag-isa. |
Pagkagising ko kahapon ng hapon (alas tres na kasi ako nagising. LOLz), agad kong tinawagan ko agad ang aking bespren sa kanilang bahay. Naisip ko kasi na sobrang kailangan kong makausap at makita sila. Ang ate nya ang sumagot at ibinigay sa kanya ang telepono. At guess what, gusto rin nya pala akong makita. Ayos. At naghanda na ako ng paliwanag kung anong mangyayari. Sinabi nya rin na marami rin daw syang ikukwento, at mababaliw na rin sya dahil wala syang makausap tungkol sa problema nya. Pareho lang pala kami ng iniisip. Nagkita rin kami nung hapon sa bahay nila at tumuloy sa isang malapit na McDonalds sa Buendia, Makati. Doon, nagkwentuhan lang kami at kumain ng cheeseburger meal hanggang gabi. Tagal ba naman di nagkita. Todo paliwanag rin ako kung bakit ganoon at kung bakit ganyan. Sinabi ko na nalungkot lang ako sa mga nabasa ko sa blog nila, at gustong gusto ko sila makita hindi lang nila alam. Medyo naging abala ako talaga nung mga nakaraang buwan. Tapos nag internet kami sa shop. So ayun. Watashi wa genki desu :D Ganoon lang talaga siguro sa magkakaibigan. May tampuhan minsan. Paano na lang kaya kung magkatrabaho na ako? Hay. Ayos lang, ayoko muna mag isip masyado. -------------------------------------- Sumairu, sumairu. It's nice to hear "Butterfly", Digimon Adventures OST . |
...ni mainetots. Ayun. Kakatapos ko lang (o tapos na nga ba?) ng template ni mainetots. Na-upload ko na kanina ang mga dapat i-upload. Pero parang may kulang pa. Tsaka ko na iisipin kung ano pang pwede idagdag. hehehe. IE sucks bigtime. Di ko maayos yung problem nun sa IE. Narealize ko lang. Buti pa sya may template huhuhuhu T_T igawa nyo naman ako ng template kung sino mabait jan huhuhuhu |
PAHINGA. Eto ako ngayon LIVE sa bahay ng tita ko sa Alabang. Nagpapaka bum hahaha! Sinusubukan ko magpakasaya ng todo ang aking 3-day vacation dito (kahit sa totoo lang, wala ka talagang magagawa dito). As in nakakabato dito. Ang ginawa ko lang dito simula nung pagdating ko e manood ng TV, kumain, mag-internet, maglaro ng Ragnarok Online, magbasa ng aklat, at matulog. Hindi rin katamaran ano? E kasi naman naghahanap-hanap na rin ako ng work online. At siguro, pag nakahanap na ako ng work, hindi ko na ulit magagawa ang mga ito. Excited nga ako para sa darating na Biyernes. Maglalakwartsa kami ni Kim at Dainty. Tagal ko rin di naranasan na magkakasama kaming tatlo.  Two of my closest friends ever.---------------------------------- Medyo pessimistic. Inamin sa akin ng pinsan ko na nagtatrabaho sa Accenture na hindi nya sinusuportahan masyado ang resume na sinubmit ko sa kanya. Kasi naman first work ko daw to (first work nga ba?), at kalimitan ng natatanggap daw dun ay may work experience na. Hindi ko alam kung matatanggap ko yung mga sinabi nya nung una, since alam ko na nakapag work naman ako dati as Net Admin ng isang company. Pero di lang ako na regular. Haay. Ayos lang, tinanggap ko na lang. ---------------------------------- OMG! Callcenter. Pagka nagkataon ay papatulan ko na talaga ang callcenter kahit ayaw ko. May mga pag aalangan kasi ako: Kapag nag callcenter ako, hindi mag-go-grow yung IT skills na gusto ko tulad ng programming, webdesign and networking; At kapag nakapasok ako sa call center, malamang baka tumagal ako dun dahil sa bond; at kapag tumagal ako dun, tatanda na ako; at kapag tumanda ako, hindi ako makakaabot dun sa "usual" age requirement ng hiring mga programmers, web designers, etc, which is USUALLY 22-25 years old. At kung magkataon, magiging isa na ako dun sa mga binabatikos ni coffeebean. ----------------------------------- Ang hirap rin pala talaga ng late naka-graduate. Kaya panay ang sita ko dun sa mga kaibigan ko na tamad mag-aral; at dun sa mga highschool ko na friends. Ayokong maranasan nila itong dinadanas ko. Hindi nila alam ang hirap. Tulad nga nung sinabi ko dun sa isang friend ko na kachat ko kagabi (habang pinaguusapan namin mga friends namin na walang pake), "They have to learn the hard way...". Like how I did. ----------------------------------- Kung kilala nyo lang ako talaga, mapapansin nyo na panay ang turo ko dun sa mga nagtatanong sa akin sa computer. Dami na ring nakaka free tutor sa kin. hehe. I've been praying that they try their best and may the Lord guide them. At sana magamit nila yun ng maayos sa studies nila. O sa hinaharap. ----------------------------------- Unti-unti ko nang nasasagot ang mga tanong sa aking buhay. Salamat at unti-unting nakikilala ko Siya ng mabuti. |
Sa sobrang bored ko dito at walang magawa, kung mapapansin nyo, puro rants lang ako ngayon hehe. ----------------------- Wow! 20 pounds na nabawas ko since December. hehehe. 180 ako ngayon. Kaso 150 pounds ang ideal weight ko. Mas mahirap daw magbawas ng weight pag mas konti na lang ang fat. kaso fat pa rin ako hahaha! Tigas ko noh? I-post ba naman ang weight. Eh sa mataba ako e, paki mo? *defensive defensive* Basta no rice lang ako. Oatmeal ang substitute ko. Plenty of water. And I love jogging. No Sugar. No Soda (except diet). Siryoso na toh. LOL ----------------------- Mamaya uuwi na ako sa amin sa Makati. Gusto ko pa sana mag stay dito sa Alabang kasi mas kaaya-aya ang environment para mag exercise. Sayang, kung kailan matindi na ang drive ko para pumayat (wahehehehe). Actually pwede naman ako mag stay ng mas matagal dito kaso nag-aapply na ako for work. Siguro ayusin ko na lang mga gamit ko at dadalhin ko dito para pag may biglaang job interview naka-ayos na. ----------------------- Tulad nga ng sabi ni mainetots, sige susubukan ko na rin ang call center. Wala nang panahon para mamili. God help me. ----------------------- Ah... sarap pa rin makinig ng lovenotes ni Joe d mango bwahahaha! La lang. try nyo. http://eradioportal.com. Copy the radio station link to your Media Player. |
Noong huling Biyernes. Overnight. Mag a-alasais na noon. Dalawang oras na akong naghihintay sa aking Bes sa MRT, Magallanes habang nakikinig sa aking MP3 player. Napansin ko rin na may kakaiba sa istasyong iyon: May barker pala yung tren dun. "Aaaahh Cubao! Cubao!" Kakaiba talaga. Hehe. Dumating rin sya sa wakas at tumuloy kami sa Cubao station kung saan naghihintay ang isa pa naming malapit na kaibigan. Naaawa na ako kasi ang tagal dumating ng taong hinintay ko. Cubao, Cubao. Sa pagkikita-kita namin, maraming mga pisikal na pagbabago akong napansin. Nagsisitandaan na talaga kami. Mataba pa rin ako. May pumayat. At merong tumaba. Hehehe. Ganun pa man, wala pa ring nagbago sa pagkakaibigan. Gateway. Dumerecho kami sa Gateway mall. Nag ikot ikot at nagpa-studio pic. Medyo natagalan sa pagpili ng background. Kulitan habang nagpapapicture. Isang oras namin hinintay para matapos ang larawan. Masaya naman ang kwentuhan. Nam-miss ko to. Plano naming mag-overnight. Sa tagal di nagkita-kita, mahaba-habang kwentuhan ito. (Read More) ----------------------------- Pero aaminin ko, may mga bagay na hinihiling ko na sana hindi ko na lang nalaman. Dun ko lang nalaman na totoo nga ang kasabihang, "Be not eager to discover secrets, for it may change your life forever." Pero nandoon ako, tinanggap ko na lang. Siguro ang mga bagay na ganoon ang nagpapatatag sa pagkakaibigan. |
One wrong thing I did the last time I fell in love: I gave my whole heart. My heart is so broken that I don't think I'm capable of loving right now. But you what? I don't have any regrets. --------------------------- Ahh... The truth set me FREE. I'm Happy. |
 I've just read something about Hollywood, doing a remake of one of my favorite Korean movies, "Siworae" (a.k.a "Il Mare") which stars Jeon Ji-Hyun (star of My Sassy Girl). Just last year, I heard a rumor of a Hollywood remake of My Sassy Girl, but I dunno if that was true. The Hollywood remake will be entitled "The Lake House" and will be starred by The Matrix hero, Keanu Reeves and co-starred by Sandra Bullock. The project will mark the first reteaming of the actors since their 1994 action thriller Speed. The movie will be released in June 2006. Just A hint, I hope you guys see the original before Hollywood releases it.  Me and Jeon in "Il Mare" XD ----------------------------------------- Thank goodness I'm done with my brother's website (or am I?) |
One day, when I was a freshman in high school, I saw a kid from my class was walking home from school. His name was Kyle. It looked like he was carrying all of his books. I thought to myself, "Why would anyone bring home all his books on a Friday? He must really be a nerd." I had quite a weekend planned (parties and a football game with my friends tomorrow afternoon), so I shrugged my shoulders and went on. As I was walking, I saw a bunch of kids running toward him. They ran at him, knocking all his books out of his arms and tripping him so he landed in the dirt. His glasses went flying, and I saw them land in the grass about ten feet from him. He looked up and I saw this terrible sadness in his eyes. My heart went out to him. So, I jogged over to him and as he crawled around looking for his glasses, and I saw a tear in his eye. As I handed him his glasses, I said, "Those guys are jerk! s. They really should get lives." He looked at me and said, "Hey thanks!" There was a big smile on his face. (Read More) |
I passed by nut_n_else's blog (who commented in my entry) a few days ago. Then I saw this line somewhere in her blog: "Dance like no one's watching." I didn't mind it at first until... Just yesterday, there was a former classmate of mine way back in college when I was still studying at AMA Computer University in Makati, who PM'd me in Yahoo messenger. "Hey, you need a job?" I said, "Sure! :D What's that?" "Web developer. We need a web developer who can also design (web) pages." I replied, "Oh I see. What are the requirements?" "I dunno. Just e-mail your resume to ***** and do it NOW. He'll give priority to your resume." And I was like "OMG! O_O". I was too scared do this because I'm still not confident with my skills. I'm currently studying a lot of things about web developement. I'm afraid not to meet the requirements. So I ditched the proposal. Another opportunity lost because of lack of self-confidence. -------------------------------- I got some serious issues in self-esteem >_> |
Uuwi. Nag-desisyon ako umuwi kanina sa aking tahanan sa Makati. May mga bagay akong kukunin, at dadaan ako sa bahay ni Bespren. Mga bandang ala-una na ng hapon na ako nakaalis dito sa Alabang. Medyo na traffic ako doon sa kahabaan ng Pasong Tamo. Nakakairita. Nagsisisi ako kung bakit pa ako dun dumaan, sana sa Guadalupe na lang pala. Pag baba ko sa kanto ng Pasong Tamo at J.P. Rizal, nagsimula akong maglakad pauwi. Habang naglalakad, napansin ko na may mga trak ng bumbero na patungo sa direksyon papuntang Guadalupe. Tumingin ako sa malayo at hinanap kung nasaan ang usok. Wala akong makita. Kaya tuloy ako sa paglalakad. OMG! Pagdating ko sa harap ng Pure Gold grocery (na malapit lang sa amin), napansin ko na doon pala marami lalong bumbero. Yung mga bumbero pala na nakita ko kanina ay galing pala doon, pauwi na. Marami sila. Marami ring uzi. Nagpatuloy ako sa paglalakad. At biglang kinabahan ako habang papalapit kasi parang lalong dumami ang bumbero malapit sa amin. At nagulat ako sa nakita ko: Nasunog yung 4 na bahay malapit sa amin. Mga apat na bahay lang ang layo. Naku, nakakaawa naman yung kapit bahay namin. Pero buti mabilis napatay ang sunog. Salamat sa mga bumbero at bayanihan. Thank God. Umuwi ako para kumuha lang ng supply ng oatmeal, at tuna. hehehe. Tsaka wala na rin pala akong facial wash at yung aking pang-ahit pogi *pose*. Kinuha rin yung Fruits Basket CDs na hinihiram ni Bes. Pagkatapos ay dumaan na ako kina sa kanila. Wala namang masyadong nangyari. Kumain lang kami ng halo-halo espesyal at nagkwentuhan. Tapos Binigyan ko ng chocolate yung dalawang bata na kapatid ni Kim. Kulitan blues ulit. Tapos ni-FLAMES (FLAMES amp!) pa ako ni Cyril. In fairness ok yung results ha. lol -------------------------------- Isang nakakatuwang pag-uusap. Alas-ocho ng gabi. Nung papauwi na ako sa Alabang, dumaan ako sandali sa simbahan. May roon palang kumpisalang-bayan. Sinamantala ko na ang pagkakataon. Nakakatuwa yung pari na natapatan ko. Madaldal. Hindi lang basta-basta na kumpisal, may kasama pang pangaral. hehehe. E nung wala nang nakapila, nakipagkwentuhan muna ako. At ang topic namin ay ang tanong ko sa kanya: "How would know if you are being called to priesthood?" -------------------------------- Binigyan ako kanina ng magazine ni Ate Yeye (yung insan ko na manunulat sa pahayagang PDI) habang sinusulat ko ang post na ito. Tatlong magazine na tungkol sa teknolohiya. Isa dun tungkol sa mga video games. May isang artikulo na kapuna-puna, si Manny Pacquiao pala ay nasa video game na (Wow bigtime ano po?)! Lalabas sya sa Fight Night Round 3 sa console na XBox 360.  Para sa yo! Ang banat na toooh-ooooo~  Manny Pacquiao  Eric Morales Parang malayo itsura ni Pacman. Pero kuha yung face ni Morales. Asteg. |
Grabe anong meron ngayong araw na ito at ang moody ng mga babaeng kausap ko? PMS day ba? Ewan. Di pa pala ako natutulog O_O |
Last Friday night, Dan reminded me that JJ and Ron will be celebrating their birthday together at JJ's place in Maceda St. (somewhere near España Boulevard). I almost forgot all about it. Saturday. I went to see the Sugoi internet shop first. Dan have been waiting for me for hours. I went there late in the afternoon. I copied his downloaded Japanese movies in my harddrive. I was happy to see Ave and Bert, after a long while. They went in JJ's place first with Kenneth, and I still have to wait for Elena and Nico and for my files to be finished downloading. There were a lot of drinking (but I only took 3 or 4 shots) and the food was fun. We also did some karaoke and much chatting. The night was fun, but we had to end the party by past 12am. Only 5 of us were left: Ron, Elben, Nico, Me, and JJ. We had a lot of serious talks about... a sensitive issue. Nico and Elben got so drunk that the rest of us have to let them sleep for a while. We went home by 3:30am. ---------------------------------- Sunday morning. I still haven't got enough sleep but I woke up to attend the Sunday mass. When I was on my way home, my mom texted me, saying that our neighbour, Arther, needs to get his laptop fixed. So I raced home and asked where Arthur is. The repair took me hours (til night) including the download for software updates and everything. I just remembered that I promised Elena that I'll fix her PC that afternoon (I'm sorry Elen!) but I was so glued in the current problem. Eventually, I got the laptop fixed as new. They payed me and gave me cake and soup LOL. Thanks. |
Kahapon, umalis ako ng bahay papunta sa school, tapos uuwi ako sa tita ko. Bago ako makaalis, inihabilin sa akin ng aking ina ang 9 na garapon ng alamang na bagoong, na nakalagay sa isang pambabae na bag. Medyo nahiya akong bitbitin yun, pero dinala ko na rin. Pumunta ko sa school para magbayad ng graduation fee. Binisita ko si Dean pagkatapos. Nang makausap ko sya, sinabi nya na sa May 8 daw ang graduation namin. At habilin pa nya na mag submit daw ng wallet-size na picture (ilalagay nya sa wallet nya para kunwari may boylet sya?) ewan. Siguro babaratin yung year book namin. Kami pa ang mag poprovide ng picture. Tapos heto pa, sinama nya ko sa deans office. Kinuha nya sa drawer ang original copy ng thesis document namin ni Roy. Iniabot sa akin tapos sabihin ba naman, "Paki-bookbind naman nito. Di pa dumadating yung taga bookbind e. Kailangan ko na. Kahit next week." Walangya. Nabayaran na namin bookbind nyan a? Kapal amp. Na-scam ako ng Dean. ------------------------------ Nakuuuu... kinakabahan ako. Bigla ba naman magyaya tong bes ko na mag apply sa callcenter mamayang umaga. Hindi ako magkaugaga ngayon kakapractice ng speech. Nirerecord ko boses ko habang nagbabasa. Tinitignan ko kung anong mga mali ko. Goodluck na lang sa akin. Pero ayaw ko talaga ng callcenter (kasi ayaw nila sa kin. hehe.) ------------------------------ Nakakatuwa nga naman. Minsan trabaho talaga lumalapit sa akin, ako lang ayaw >.< kaninis rin. |
Hindi ako nakakuha ng trabaho kahapon, pero God still blessed me with something MORE. Thank God :D Goodluck ulit mamaya sa akin. Apply ulit. Hindi ko masabi sa inyo kung ano yun, pero eto lang ang masasabi ko: Hindi talaga mapapantayan ang pakiramdam ng pagsasabi ng totoo. Parang sobrang laya ng pakiramdam mo. Wala dun yung pagkatali mo sa guilty feeling. Wala yung si makulit na konsensya na araw araw na bumubulong sa yo. Malaya ka. ----------------------------- Sabi ng isang friend ko, ang mga tao ay nagdadasal lang kasi may hinihingi sila. Yun naman pala e, alam naman nya kung anong mali. Wag sanang ganun di ba. |
...naked! Of course, I'm speaking figuratively. Today, past 9am, I went to PLDT office in Mandaluyong. I heard from a friend that there is a job opening for call center associates position. So I did. But when I got there, I left right away. That's because of that new rule for cc applicants: "just leave the résumé in the table and we'll call you." Maybe that's to prevent long lines (or stampedes? hehe) Then after that, I realized that I have a lot of time in my hands. I had no plans. I didn't know what to do next, or where to go. I just remembered about that job opening somewhere at the RCBC Plaza (in Ayala Makati). Then there I was. I stepped into the building and started looking for the office. But I didn't know where to start searching. I texted my friend Dan and asked where could the office be located. Luckily, as I look around the plaza, I bumped into a friend who I haven't seen for a while. It was Mike. He works in the company I was searching for. He showed me the way and told me some things about the jobs being offered. I went up in the elevator and into the 34th floor I go. 11:15am. At the reception, I asked the receptionist for the job opening. Then I gave my resumé but the receptionist asked me to come back at 1pm because the HR personnel was out for lunch. I just went back home and refreshed myself. It was very hot outside ya know! I took my lunch break then I washed my face. Aaahh... Then I came back as fast as I could. But as I walk back to the building, I feel scared all of a sudden. Not again. This was how I felt a long time ago, when I tried out my luck at call centers. I tried to calm myself down. I repeatedly told myself, "Dance like nobody's watching. And God is with me!" And then, suddenly I felt so calm .I even sang, "Narda" (by Kamikazee) while I listen to my mp3 player as I walk in the streets (just why, oh why, can't I get sick of this song). I went back to the reception lobby, and waited in the corner for more instructions. And I waited long. I've been listening to my MP3 player until the battery ran out. I asked the receptionist if I could go out and buy something [batteries]. I went out for a few minutes. The exam. Then I came back and I waited for more. And then finally, the HR asked me to come with her. I went ahead to the exam room, then suddenly, there came a couple of guys. Examinees, like me. One of them took a test like what I was taking, and the other one was about to take his initial interview. We had some chat while taking the test. They told me that they work for Pristontale game. And they also told me that this position I was applying for is a very boring job. The other guy went ahead for interview, and the other and I still try to figure out the answers for the questions. The test was easy in general. But the answers will vary the results. And I think I answered very well. Why do I think so? hehe... The initial interview. After the test, the other guy called out that HR lady [Ms. Alma] for the interview. He went first. I also tried eavesdropping from the conversation. But just after a few minutes, the interview ended and the HR just told him that they will call [him] if he qualifies for the second interview. So there I go. I got a little nervous, but I conquered it. And little by little it felt like it was just an ordinary conversation with a friend. Although I have to admit that my English is not straight. But it didn't bother me because I knew that this is not a call center interview. I answered honestly. And sometimes TOO honestly. Too honestly that the interviewer became very interested in what I've been talking about. She began asking me questions about *something* that I told her. And she was quite impressed in my answers and took me to the next room where I can do the panel interview. The Panel interview. I waited only for a few minutes until the glass door opened and two young gentlemen came in. We greeted and shook hands and the questioning started. I was surprised to hear questions which are not really related in the position I was applying for, but more about what I have written in my résumé. They asked me about my thesis, how much do I know about gaming, Local Area Networking, etc. Mostly about networking. I wonder why (I assume that they'll give me a break in their IT dept IF EVER I will stay for a long time. OH PLEASE! GIMME GIMME!) The interviewer looked at my résumé, and he noticed that I had my practicum at Lucent Technologies. Then suddenly he asked, "Do you happen to know a guy named Darwin de Guzman?" Omg. He knows Darwin?? Small world. I told him, "Yes! He happened to be my mentor way back when I was a trainee at Lucent." The guy looked impressed. He told me that he used to work with Darwin. And probably he knew how good he [Darwin] is. Then he started asking MORE questions about networking, maybe testing me how much have I learned. I answered in a not-so-very-good English, but I got it all answered. He also added, "For you, is being a ***** a full time job or just a stepping stone?" I replied, "It's just a stepping stone. I want to be a Network Administrator in the future." "Of course. Just like your Master." LOL. When we got finished, He told me, "Our boss is out for a Hotel conference, and we will call you later if the Boss approves"**. We shook hands again and said farewell. And I thanked them. Later that evening, I texted Bea (who is currently working there) and I told her, "I think I got the job. Too bad your Boss wasn't there to approve my application, if ever. " Then she texted back, "We were just talking about you. They said you're OK. I was supposed to be the one who'll interview you. But when I looked at the resumé, I asked somebody else to do that. I don't want to be biased." ** - This is the exact phrase that he told me. I got excited after telling me that. Just look carefully, he said, "if the Boss approves". I assume he meant that I am ok for them. And I only needed the Boss' approval. ------------------------------ At the end of the day, I've just realized that I went dancing around, naked, and danced like nobody's watching me. I did my very best today. ------------------------------ Oh Lord, Just getting me into a second interview, was already a blessing for me! I love you! It's nice to hear "Narda" by Kamikazee . |
Minsan humiling ako kay Lord na sana magka-trabaho ako agad pag nakatapos ako. Inaasahan ko na mahihirapan ako makahanap ng trabaho, tulad nung 2004 at 2005 kung saan na depress ako ng sobra kasi hindi ako matanggap. Sa bagay hindi ako graduate nun. Naisip ko na nga magpakamatay noon sa sobrang depression. Pero iba ang sitwasyon ngayon. Lalo na ngayong linggong ito. Sumobra ata yung job offers. hehehe. Ang hirap... mamili. Dati may nag offer sa akin ng trabaho dun sa PREX. Kaso parang encoder lang ata yun. Naku, hindi ko linya yan. Salamat na lang. May nabanggit na work si Nheenia as Web Developer. Nakakahalina ang starting salary, pero duda ako kung may pagkakataon ba akong umunlad dun. Tapos yung interview ko kahapon sa e-games. Mukhang pasado naman ako sa interview, kaso wala pang approval ng boss nila. di pa ko tinatawagan. Sana makapasa ako. Kaso balita ko mababa lang sweldo dun sa umpisa. Pero may pagkakataon akong umunlad. Pero ito yung tipo na trabaho na mamahalin ko at hindi ako magsasawa. Etong kaibigan ko sa AMA Makati, si Lily, napuwersa ako ngayong mag-apply dun sa Kompanya nila sa Ortigas bilang Web Developer. Dati, tinanggihan ko ito kasi hindi ako kampante sa sarili kong kakayahan. Pero ngayon, napwersa nya ko. Hehe. Ayos lang. May training daw. Kaso layo naman. Mukhang ok naman ang starting na sweldo, at ok rin kasi mukhang may pagkakataon uunlad hindi lang ang posisyon ko dun kundi pati na rin ang kakayahan ko. Bahala na. Takot ako pero bahala na si Lord sa kin. Labo rin ng buhay minsan ano? Extremes. |
Hehehe. Wala lang akong maisip na title. Medyo na fraustrate lang ako sa paghahanap ng trabaho. Pero ayos lang, nagsisimula pa lang naman ako. --------------------------- Anyway, kakagaling ko lang sa PREx, isang seminar sa simbahan namin (narinig mo na siguro 'to kung Katoliko ka). Napansin ko lang na ang batch ng PREx na to ay hindi ganoon ka-enthusiastic tulad nung huli. May mga pa-tawa-tawa lang sa lakuran ko, inaantok ang karamihan, mga mga nagsuot ng sexy, may mga nakatingin sa sexy, atbp. 38 kami kanina. Ilan kaya ang matitira? May narinig akong nakakatuwang kuwento kanina sa speaker. Kuwento ko next time. --------------------------- Iseshare ko lang itong nabasa ko sa aklat na The Purpose-Driven Life. Something that made me realize why I have to live life like it's my last day... Sometimes procrastination is a legitimate response to a trivial task. But because love is what matters most, it takes top priority. The Bible stresses this repeatedly. It says, "Whenever we have the opportunity, we should do good to everyone." "Whenever you possibly can, do good to those who need it. Never tell your neighbor to wait until tomorrow if you can help them now." --------------------------- Tampo sa kin si Cindy. Birthday nya ngayon, hindi ko raw binati man lang. But I sent her a text message earlier. Ewan ko kung nariceive nya. Babatiin ko sana sa YM, kaso feeling ko ayaw nya magpabati kasi ang gloomy masyado nung stat nya. My fault. I should have exerted effort anyway. Kung itatanong nyo kung sino si Cindy, sya ang aking sort of adopted younger sister. Alam ko na ang rason kung bakit hindi ako magkaka GF: hindi kasi ako "sweet". I have been reading "The Purpose-Driven Life" (Chapter 17) . |
PREx: A brand new Experience I've been smiling like this  for days.I've never thought that one day, I would get involved in a Church activity as actively as this. And I feel satisfied. Last Friday, thirty-eight people registered for the Parish Renewal Experience or PREx in our local parish at The Holy Cross Parish, here in Makati City. For two-and-a-half days, these people would experience renewal of their faith in the Catholic Church. A nice very experience indeed. PREx is not a group nor an organization. It is an experience. The whole seminar is composed of 10 "talks". Each talk is divided into different activities: first we listen to the speaker; then a member of the past PREx shares his/her answer to the questionnaire; then a small group sharing where each group is composed of 5-6 members and shares their answers for the questionnaires for the talk; then a large group sharing where anybody could volunteer to share their answers; then we eat (my favorite part XD). The seminar was conducted at the Tejeros Barangay Hall. I've never been really a "people-person" very much. I mean, I don't mingle too much with a lot of people (except those times when I used to eyeball with my IRC chatmates). But this is totally different. Here, you will have to mingle with people of all walks of life. The rich, the poor, the pretty, the not-so-pretty, the old, the young, and many more. You will be surprised about their stories. I guess, like what is said in The Desiderata, "listen to others, even to the dull and the ignorant, they too have their story", is true. Their stories are surprising. Then eventually, you will make friends with them. We talked, listened to the lectors, danced, eat, write, shared stories. FOOD! Speaking of food, I've never experienced eating full meals for six times a day before. Not until last Saturday. And Sunday (we ate for 5 times that day, I think). But I guess all seminars that you have attendend are like that. I did, mostly way back in elementary and highschool. Many are called, but few have answered. Out of 38 people that registered before Friday, only 33 were left in Sunday night. These 33 Godly people graduated just last night, after the 7 [PM] o'clock mass. Too bad we didn't beat the batch 2 of PREx, where 34 members attended. We are batch 9, by the way. Listen and learn something. There were lots of speakers who came by. Some are pastors, a former policeman, a guy who came from a really poor family, and many others. There were some who came from other Parishes. And others, are just from our community. They spoke and we learned a lot. From funny experiences to the most tear-jerky ones. Each story is unique, yet, have one goal: to open our hearts to God. New Friends (or acquaintances). Hmm. Well... I really don't consider them friends yet, but let's just say, acquaintances. But there are lots of nice people there who are seeking God. Surprisingly, I learned from some people there that they joined for some other reasons, which I don't have to mention. I was also surprised to learn that I have schoolmates in my alma mater, Paco Catholic School [Gail, Tony, Ryan, Jhet, and Ciara]. There is also this young lady who felt comfortble with me easily. It was Ely. Parang close agad bah. And there were other nice people like Edward, Mike, Kristel, Robin, Belle, and many more. What's fun about this seminar is that we have to call each other KUYA (big brother) or ATE (elder sister), regardless of age. |
Most Unforgetable Experiences. Tear-Jerky. In every sharing, there were times that there's somebody who is most likely to shed tears. I must admit that I did get teary-eyed, too. I even did shed tears in front of the people, but that's quite normal so it's no trouble at all. And also, at the last day of the seminar, our very own Monsignor Dennis talked to us and I really did cry. And after talking to us, the committee gave us brown envelopes, which contains welcome letters from past PREx members, which are very touching. And then I found another letter inside. A letter from my family. I hesitated to read it at first because I don't wanna cry anymore. But eventually, I did. Game. Also, one of the fun experiences in that seminar is that we played a group game they called "Samson, Delilah, Lion". It's like paper-scissors-rock but they substituted Samson and others. Samson beats lion, but gets defeated by Delilah; Delilah beats Samson, but Lion, and so on. And the whole class is divided into 2. Each group has a leader, and the leader tells everybody in the group what to act [Samson, Delilah or Lion] and faces away from each other. At a count of 3, they'll face each other and act what the leader told them. The group who gets 3 points wins. Now, the funny thing here is that after the Speaker got finished explaining the rule, everybody in my group asked me to be their leader  . Whoa. I'm not really got at leadership but that's ok. Then, a dryrun. At the tryout, our group lost. But guess what? We won! Three to zero. hehehe!Surprise! Sunday morning. After Talk 1, they served us spaghetti and 2 pieces of bread. While we're eating, a speaker told us, "Please eat as much as you can because we won't be serving lunch. We're late in the schedule and we don't have enough funds. We should fast for lunch." So I ate 2 servings of Spaghetti and 4 pieces of bread. Then after eating, that was about past 10am, Talk 2 started. The seminar went on. Then after Talk 2, the speaker asked us to come downstairs, at the Prayer room. They asked us to keep quiet. But the people got bored and just went talking while I just listened to my MP3 player. After almost 30 minutes, somebody asked us to form a "train", close our eyes, and go upstairs again. As we go back inside the room (with closed eyes), I smell something really tasty. We all formed a line inside the room with eyes closed. And somebody whispered at my left ear, "Aren't you not afraid?". I guess that that was Kuya Al. And I answered, "Not at all!" Then at a count of three, we opened our eyes, and the tables are filled with lots of food! LOL. My guess is right. We ate and talked a lot. But most of us can't eat that much because of that spaghetti earlier that day. The speaker apologized for the joke, for it's just a part of the program. "It's A SETUP!!!" After lunch, we all went back to our proper places. Then the speaker announced that, "There are TEN people here who might not graduate today, for they did some violations or is not active." He called one by one. I was confident enough that I won't be in that list. But at my surprise, I was the lucky number 9. What the heck have i done?  From left, They asked each people one by one about what do they think they have done wrong. And one of the speakers tell us what was that all about. Then my turn. I told them, "I'm not sure. But maybe I'm not active today...". Then The speaker told me, "No! That was because..." Then Kuya Al went near me and reached inside my shirt pocket. To my surprise, I have candies in pocket! Then Kuya Louie told me, "Nag-uuwi ka kasi ng candy!" (FYI: every table in that seminar have bowls with lots of candy). Then they gave me the mic and asked me what can I say about that. I jokingly shouted, "IT'S A SETUP!!!" Everybody laughed. Then after all 10 people spoke, the speaker asked us to turn around and close our eyes. Then at a count of ten, we opened our eyes and turned around. I was astonished with what I have seen: a person in front of me was holding a small cheesecake with a small birthday candle on it. Then everybody sang "happy birthday". All those 10 people are March and April birthday celebrants.Forgiveness Activity. We had an activity where we have to think about the people we hurt, and we did something (which I don't have to specify). But in that activity, I prayed for my parents (specially my dad), and Cindy, who I thought I hurt before. Actually, there are more unforgettable experiences in there, but I should not mention them here. Some things are meant to be secrets. |
Graduation. Before the 7pm mass, the PREx 9 members went straight from the Barangay Hall to the church for the night mass. We gathered and sitted in the center of the church. Then as the mass concluded, the graduation ceremony begun. All of a sudden, my mind went flying somewhere else. I didn't know that I would be called first. The priest called my name for the certificate, but I didn't respond rightaway. Then the rest looked at me and then started tapping me and calling my name. "Hoy! Alvin daw!!" And I was shocked and came running. But as I stepped my right foot on the aisle, my foot slipped! I almost fell but I was ok. Then the priest handed me over the certificate and I turned back. But the priest called me again and told me to shake hands with him and the rest of PREx leaders. Then when I was about to turn back, the priest asked me to return the certificate, because he handed me over the wrong one. It was not mine  . Gosh. Then I went ahead to my sit. But when I was about to step my left foot back to the bench, I slipped, again.ooohhh goodness... Nakakahiya. LOLz After the ceremony, the PREx community went at the back of the church for a little celebration. Then the rest of the Church leaders went congratulating us. Kuya Louie approached me then went laughing and said, "Ok ba yung setup mo? hehehe" I just laughed. And I asked him, "How can I join the Lay Ministry?" He was surprised in my enthusiasm. And he said that he will call me up when there's an available time for training. He promised that I will be mostly prioritized because I came from PREx. And he was welcoming me already, eventhough I'm still not one of their group. ---------------------------------- Miracles after that seminar. Later that night, when I went home, I was surprised to see my father again. He was in Antipolo for a few days, fixing our house in there. And surprisingly, he wasn't that cold towards me. Whoa. That was a fast miracle. I was just praying for him last Saturday. Then when I went online, I was surprised to see Cindy's message to me. She said that she wasn't angry with me. I've been praying for these two last saturday (read part 2). And God answered rightaway. Now that was so cool. ---------------------------------- Also, later that night, eventhough I was very tired, I visited Kim to their house. I was just worried because she is in a big trouble that time. I just wanted to see her. And I lend her my Bob Ong book, "Stainless Longganisa." ---------------------------------- After knowing God better, I hope that I would get a job soon. But of course, if that is in God's time. ---------------------------------- The Speakers told us not to tell what happened in that seminar. But still, here I am telling you about it. hehe. Actually, this story is for myself, so I won't forget. And I want to share this with you so that maybe, just maybe, you may get interested. ---------------------------------- If you guys wanted to experience a different kind upliftment, try asking your local Catholic Parishes if they hold PREx seminars. God bless you all. 
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Puro rants na lang ito. Wala kong maipost. --------------------------- PBB. Sana manalo si Bianca. Mahal ko na ata sya. hehehehe. Ganda talaga. --------------------------- We got a new electric fan! weeeee! XD (babaw ko lolz) Eh paano ba naman kasi, nung nasira yung propeller nung luma namin, ang tagal bago kami nakabili. Ang init tuloy pag nagpi-pc ako. La lang. Share ko lang. --------------------------- Hanap pa rin ng work. Wala pa makitang compatible. Hindi na ko na-contact nung mga inapplayan ko. LOLz. Bahala nga sila. I guess I wasn't meant to be in that work. Hindi rin ako nanghinayang dun sa offer ni Lily, kasi malayo sa amin. Ayoko magtravel ng malayo. --------------------------- Busy April. The upcoming month is going to be very tiring. On April 1, the Church community is planning to hold a visita iglesia somewhere in Rizal. I will need at least 350PHP for transpo. Now where can I get money right now. I'm so broke. Well, that's ok if I couldn't go. I got myself involved in the Parish Youth Ministry. We have to make a presentation for this coming Holy Week. Something they call a "Blacklight" performance. This is so cool. The whole church will shut its lights off. Then we have this violet Flourescent light below us, and we will be wearing all-black clothes and white gloves. Then the only thing you can see in the room is our hands. And with synchro with the music, we do some actions. In Holy Thursday, The Parish Youth Ministry, is inviting us in an activity (I'm not sure what that is). Adz is also inviting me to get involved in their yearly prusisyon in their barangay in Makati, visiting every kubol. This activity is done every Good Friday. ---------------------------- We were having a PREx meeting a while ago. The meeting oriented us about joining the Parish ministries and organizations. As what I've said in my last post, I asked Kuya Louie to get me into Lay Ministry. But a while ago, I told Ryan that I will try playing keyboards (an organ, specifically) for the music ministry only IF I CAN. While we are taking our break, I went inside the church and turned the organ on. I tried playing. But It seems that I got very rusty. Plus, the organ is very old. So I just decided to go with Tony in the Documentation committee. ---------------------------- |
Morning. My mom and I were just talking about nothing in particular. Just some sort of bonding. Then she asked me something. "Wala pa bang tumatawag sa yo?" She was asking me if I do have up-coming job interviews. But lately, there were no e-mails nor calls from companies. Noon. I was chatting with my friend Tere through SMS. I encouraged her to just quit her job in the casino and just get into the government office work she was applying to. I was texting back until my Cel phone rang... "Hello. This is _______ from Accenture..." A short phone interview from Accenture. That person informed me about an exam and interview tomorrow morning at 9. I'm so nervous right now. And coincidentally, Tere, too, will be having having a job interview tomorrow afternoon. I asked for prayers from my friends at PREx. And I am also asking help from all my friends. This is the job I really want. If I can't get this one, I don't know what will I do. ----------------------------------- For people who are looking for work. I'm giving out ideas where to look for jobs. For local [Philippines] Job Street JobsDB If you want to work abroad: http://poea.gov.ph/ http://www.workabroad.ph/ It's nice to hear "Two Princes" by Spin Doctors . |
Tulala ako kanina sa test sa Accenture. Hindi pa ako nakaranas ng ganoong-katinding pagsusulit mula noong kumuha ako ng UPCAT. Ganitong ganito yung naramdaman ko nung nag-UPCAT ako noong highschool pa ako. Para akong lalagnatin na tulala tapos nanginginig. Sabihing mo mang OA ako, eh sa ganito ang nararamdaman ko e. Sa test na yun, naramdaman ko na napakaraming bagay ko pang dapat pag-aralan. Maraming pagsubok na dapat daanan. Ang mahirap rin kasi masyado akong naging kampante, minaliit ang pagsusulit na yun. Pero syempre, hindi ako magpapatali dito. Bukas, ayos na ako. |
Because of that incident yesterday, I thought of things that I might do while I'm idle. Self-taught is the only way for me right now (I'm so broke. lol) I am a jack of all trades, in computer stuff. I can do many things. But the problem is, I haven't mastered any of my skills. I can program, I can network, do webpages, I can fix hardware and software-related problems. But I still have a lot to learn. Web Development. So I decided to concentrate in my Web Development skills. In my plan, I will try to learn more about: MySQL, PHP, ASP.NET, Macromedia Flash 8. But I will do this one at a time. I got rusty in programming. teehee... Getting back my artistic side. In my spare time, I'm reading a piano tutorial. Unfortunately, my electronic keyboard is broken As far as I can remember, my mom (or my aunt) bought me that keyboard when I was still in elementary. But I'm not sure when in elementary. It served me well. Rest in peace mah friend.  I need a new electronic keyboard (or a piano). Right now, if I needed to use a keyboard, I have to get here in my aunt's home (which is troublesome). But at least this electronic Yamaha Organ is quite nice. Feels like when I was playing for my Organ lessons way back in elementary.----------------------------------------- Series of unfortunate events. Just a few weeks ago, my cousin Jasmine had her celphone infected with virus (I think). And it's still messed up right now. Then just last week, her car [a Honda Jazz] was bumped at the back by a mysterious trailer truck with no plate number. The truck ran away. And yesterday, her wallet got stolen at Taft Avenue while going to work. With the wallet are important documents, credits cards, and some money. All those things are what she treasure most. Maybe it's a wake-up call for her. She have been always busy with work all these years, and I can understand that because she is a reporter. She works hard for money. Maybe she forgot to thank God for everything she has right now. Don't get me wrong. She is one of my nicest cousins ever. But being a good person isn't everything. We have to devote everything we have to God. |
Mag-aalas-kwatro na ng umaga, pero di pa rin ako makatulog. Kaya post muna ako ulit. ------------------------------- Success. Naalala ko ang sinabi sa akin ng bespren kong si Kim. "How would you define success? Kapag mayaman ka na ba, o di kaya kapag sikat ka na o kaya'y powerful ka na, successful ka na? For me, success is the state of satisfaction. It does not really matter if you are rich in material things, nor powerful, nor famous. What matters is that you are happy, even if you are now living a very simple life."Sa mga salitang yan maaalala ko si Kim. ------------------------------- Sense of Duty. Isang gabi sa burol ng aking Tita Marita, nakakwentuhan ko ang isang kagawad ng aming barangay. Si Kuya Arthur. Hindi ko alam kung bakit nya nabanggit ito sa akin. Pero hindi ko ito malilimutan. "Alam mo Benjo, siguro kung hindi ako nagka-asawa ngayon, ayos lang. Kasi sa totoo lang, hindi ko naman naiisip mag-asawa noon. Para kasing nakatali ang isip ko sa tungkulin ko. Sense of Duty ba."Malalim ang pagkakahulugan ng mga salitang ito para sa akin. Sense of Duty. Siguro yan ang kulang sa akin ngayon. Aaminin ko kasi naging iresponsable ako sa maraming duties sa buhay ko. At hanggang ngayon, may kritikal na desisyon akong hindi ko pa malaman kung anong isasagot ko, kasi takot ako sa responsibilidad. Marahil siguro, kaya hindi rin ako nagka-gf kahit noon pa, dahil rin dyan sa rason na yan. Pero ibang bagay na yan. hehe. Speaking of duty, kung maari, panoorin nyo itong magandang flash animation na ito... --------------------------------- Mukhang OK na nga kami ng dad ko. Kung nabasa nyo lang yung entry ko noong nakaraang ilang araw, maiintindihan nyo. Nakakatuwa lang isipin, maraming pagbabago na ang nangyayari sa akin. Kahit na wala akong trabaho ngayon, masayahin pa rin ako. Masasabi kong "successful" ako ngayon, in a way. |
Yay! I'm learning piano little by little. Today, I made some progress, although I had some trouble reading notes on staves with accidentals at the beggining. I'm used to read natural notes. It's really cool that I learned how to form Chords. Way back when I was still a kid in a music school, my teacher used to make me memorize all those chords in the chart, which is really a bad I idea. But this book I was reading a while ago taught me how to form chords using a formula (and you wont even have to memorize the chords). And through this technique, forming of chords will become natural to you like riding a bike. And in just less than an hour, I already know all the Triad chords (chords with 3 notes) and those with 7s (e.g. C7, G7, etc.). That book is effective alright. But I'm still at chapter 6. Four more chapters to go. ------------------------------ Mga problematic. Eto na naman itong mga kaibigan ko. Puro problematic. Sa totoo lang, hindi ko na alam kung paano ako makakatulong sa kanila. Pero wala na lang muna akong magagawa sa kanila ngayon, kasi alam ko kailangan nila pagdaanan yan. Ang masama nga lang nito, nagmumukang iniiwan ko sila sa ere. I will just at least talk to them, if they have time for me. Hindi pa naman ako magaling na confidant, kaya siguro lumalayo sila sa kin. ------------------------------ Of defending Catholisism. I grew up as a Catholic. I humbly admit that I'm still not ready to defend my Church, for I know little about my faith. I still have a lot to learn. And this kind of weakness caused many people from my Church to get away. I will just do things what I think is right, according to what I have learned so far. I won't even bother get into senseless arguments. ------------------------------ Hmm... may naiisip na akong layout. Mamaya nga masimulan na ang bago kong layout. Version... anong version a nga ba ko lolz. 14 na ata. |
