haha.. after months of not seeing each other, finally today is the day.. haha..

how did it happened??

me and kagandahang jessica planned last wednesday to have a special meeting for the suprise celebration for ate she because she will be graduating this saturday, the said call time is exactly 9am but because of my kagandahang insan 11:30am ng-start.. astig noh?? and because of the super organize meeting the only presidents came are crim,cs,hrm.. haha.. sinundo p nmin c kuya jef sa accountancy pero okie lng kc masaya nman, and kung super lucky k p tlga ate she is not around in university because she's having a lunch with their Dean kya we decide to eat muna sa zola for the meeting for the "real" suprise lunch for our dear president..we are with gagay pla..

going there, super ingay at kwentuhan kmi, prang di kmi ngkita ng ilang taon ni insan nd tinatawanan kmi nung dalawang mokong, inggit lng cla.. hihi.. i saw ferdinand also and said n gumaganda daw ako.. naks nman! knina c sir john nagsbi nun eh.. haha.. sna dw m2loy ung get-together ng mga sof1 sa december.. soo, ayun na, nakarating na kmi and we decided to order sizzing porchop with hot rice.. weee.. nghntay p muna kmi ng 10 mins for the preparation.. grabe gutom nmin nun kya super talk n lng kmi while waiting, insan was shocked bcoz c gagay pla is kptid ng ex koh, ngtaka cya bat super close prn and un ngng topic nmin buong araw.. haha.. pero hndi p rn nmin nakalimutan ang pnka-agenda and that is the suprise lunch for ate she, when the food is served super kwentuhn prn kmi and ngng expression ng mga boyz "take ur time" kc sobrang daldal at ingay tlga nmin knowing n we are eating.. haha.. la lng, di nauubusan eh.. insan admire my being "MAAYOS na babae" dw, ewan koh dun, sbi p dw kht cya din dw ung nanay ng ex koh, boto dw cya skin kc konti n lng dw ung mga babae n 2lad koh na n super all-in-one package n and ayun pinuri nnman nmin mga sarili nmin.. haha.. sana nga gnun din c "toot" kso di ako n-appreciate eh.. bdtrip!

after we ate, hinatid nmin c gagay kc uuwi na, pumunta kmi ng dagupan astro to look for ate she kc ka2usapin nmin kung kelan tlga cya available, we walked and talked a lot ulit  ng papunta at lalo atang ngng worst kc lalo ata kming ngng ma-ingay sa daan kc ang topic c "toot", ayun nsa2yangan c insan sa nangyri smin and how coincidence na 18 din monthsary nla.. hayz! sayang tlaga.. pdting nmin dun, super bonding ky ate she and medyo tambay at pahinga ng konti.. tinuro din ni insan crush nya at okey nman cya.. matangkad.. hehe..

we stayed there for an hour tpz balik skul, ng-kwentuhan kmi dun hanggang 4pm, tpz pinakila2 smin ni kuya venz ung best friend nya, c kuya israel.. medyo cutie and single.. pwede.. haha..  iba-iba ngng topic pero more on girlie talk tlga, luvlife nming dlwa, family, at kalokohan and ayun medyo may prob c insan sa luvlife nya, nata2kot cyang ma-fall sa iba kc mahal nya c alexis kc may crushie cya ung tinuro nya sa astro, kya un, bzta kya m yan insan! kw pa! haha.. bzta ang mahalaga maganda taung dalawa.. sinamahan koh din cyang kumuha ng subjs nya and finally we went home n rn.. thankz sa paghatid insan..

because of our super long talked and bonding, ang dmi pla nming similarities ni insan

1) same monthsary (18)
2) don't know how to swim
3) allergic to alcoholic beverages
4) don't dance at all
5) abong (means asa bahay lang)
6) 20 years old

haha.. soulmate?? bzta saya tlga ng kwentuhan knina.. more bonding kagandahang insan jes hihi..
muahz!

while waiting for insan pla, ng-usap muna kmi ni gagay and ayun na sabi nya na gustong-gusto dw ako mama irene.. hayz.. super sad tlga, i'm planning to visit them kso di natuloy kc may meeting with the council presidents.. namimiz koh 2loy c "toot" kht hndi dapat.. bad shot!

i received this quote pla.. share koh lng..

people always think that the most painful thing in life is losing the one you value,
the truth is,
the most painful thing is losing yourself in the process of valuing someone too much and forgetting that you are SPECIAL too..

three months rule is over.. today is NOVEMBER 5 and it only shows na wla n tlga and i really should move on.. three months lng akong umasa at ngpaka-tanga sa wala..

AUGUST 5, 2009 / around 11:30 AM, that was three months ago and the exactly day and time when we finally separate each other.. it was really unexpected, i was drove by my emotions.. anong alam koh n mggng gnun mangyyri?? cnong mkpgssbi n ung dalawang taong mahal na mahal ang isa't-isa at hndi alam kung pano mghhwlay ay bglang mghi2wlay.. i don't know how to explain my feelings right now.. HAPPY coz finally i'm free and i almost give respect to our 8 months relationship but why SAD?? simple lng, TANGA p rn kc ako, i'm still hoping that my supposed to be lifetime prince will come again and will hug and kiss me..

ewan koh.. nhhrapan p rn ako, umaasa p rn pero bkit?? why should i letting myself feel this one?? i don't deserve it in the first place, it's obvious he don't luv me anymore, he's happy with someone else, someone who's nearer to him, prettier, lovelier i guess and more understable and less selosa.. i have no idea on what his girl looks like but according to my source maputi daw which is different to me coz i'm morena.. ano nman ngaun LANA??? ang dmi nmang ngkkgusto sau.. ano nman ngaun

believe it or not, i'm crying right now, emotional n kung emotional, wla lng.. i thought he's the one, the one who can bring me to aisle and can shout to the world na "YES! AKIN NA SI LANA!" pero hindi, he left unexpectedly, san ako ngkulang?? i almost did everything to save our relationship pero wla, ngmukha p rn akong tanga sa huli, mhrap nga tlgang ipilit ang sarili sa taong ayaw na sau..

san ba koh ngkamali?? nagmahal lng nman ako, oo selosa ako pero alam m nman kung bkit db?? you know how much i value our relationshp, i almost called and texted you, alam mng i can't go sa manila coz i have my class here pero sna nman hndi m cnbi ung totoo nung supposed to be monthsary ntn, you admit na you have someone else, alam m b kung anong labas nun skin?? niloko mo koh, pinaasa ng sobra! kc alam m ng ngkkandarapa ako ng sgot gling sau tpz ung sgot m, aside sa late, sobrang sakit p! hayz!

and you know what adds the pain? is the truth na pinalitan mo agad ako.. bat gnun?? madali b kng kalimutan?? gnyan b tlga kapg long-distance relationshp?? mnsan nga iniisp koh kung minahal m b tlga ako, which is hndi nman ata, wla lng, niligawan m lng ako coz you're missing to have someone to take gud care of you, i do admit sometimes feeling koh hndi mo koh gnun k-mahal, na hndi k gnun k-proud compare nung nili2gawan m c ailyn, nili2gawan p lng un ha..

message to him:
thank you. sobrang thank you sa lahat. thank you for teaching me to be strong and to learn to stand on the words i say. thank you for being strict. thank you for the good and bad memories. thank you for introducing me to your family especially to your mom. you know how happy i am to have a new mom. i hope i can still call your mom, "MAMA". always take good care of yourself. i'm always proud of you. thank you too for letting me love you and making me MS. CARANZA for eight months. always be happy and take good care of her. i miss you.

honestly, hindi ako galit sknya, ngttmpo lng coz we ended badly, those things written above are the things and feelings that i encountered on my three months of healing and still in the process of healing..

right now, i know that it's about time that i should be happy and love someone else and i'm praying to God and St. Jude that my next mr.right will be the last one, coz i know and they know that i'm not really good on moving on, that i be more happier and luckier on him.. 

haha.. dahil nga sa sobrang boring nga kmi dhil sa case study na hndi matapos-tapos nagkaroon ng luv team sa klase.. haha..

it was jane and jayvee.. J to J nga dw.. haha.. pano b ng-start?? eh itong cla glenn and nikki ang ng-start and ayun ng-grow na tlga.. ngaun isa n clang matinding tandem and kami ang mga fans.. nagising nman ang mga dugo nmin dhil dun kc sobrang antok n tlga kami.. as in! haha.. tpoz may mga pampagising p n music kaya sobrang bongga, hndi nttkot na m-inc sa grade.. haha..

NOYNOY AQUINO and MAR ROXAS dn went sa skul, ayun sobrang bangag nnman kc may politicians n ddting and super happy kc UL lng tlga ang venue so some of the students from different skul came to see nonoy, ayun nakita nmin and wla lng.. haha.. uMmm.. ala nman c mar, hndi dumating.. psaway tlga.. haha.. sinama koh lng c mar para bonnga, riza hontiveros and d son of guingona ang andun, cla kris and other kapatid nya dpat andun kso kumakain p dw.. haha.. nakuha dn kmi ng video ky kris when they are in ST. John Cathedral for Soc Villegas.. cya n kc bgong archibishop ng pangasinan.. bongga db?? haha..

i also saw insan and were planning for the graduation of ate she sna matuloy.. late nnman kming umuwi ng dahil sa VB.. hayz!

good day

cla lng.. haha..

yupz! back2skul n mga kpatid koh pero hndi ako kht n and2 ako ngaun sa skul.. haha..

i'm juz going to meet my thesis members and ggwin lng ang case study.. hehe.. medyo nkktmad pero ayos lng nman.. hihi.. keysa asa bahay lng

enjoy ur day guys muahz!

 our group pic during our thesis  

yey!

WELCOME TO PANGASINAN

archbishop soc villegas

enjoy you're stay here

we love you!

muahz!

The Holy Father appointed Bishop Socrates B. Villegas of Balanga, Philippines, as archbishop of Lingayen-Dagupan (area 1,565, population 1,313,000, Catholics 1,084,000, priests 76, religious 57), Philippines. The archbishop-elect was born in Manila, Philippines in 1960, he was ordained a priest in 1985 and consecrated a bishop in 2001. He succeeds Archbishop Oscar V. Cruz, whose resignation from the pastoral care of the same archdiocese the Holy Father accepted, upon having reached the age limit.

weee.. sobrang saya ang start ng month ng november hihi..

uMMm.. one of the reasons why happy is because and2 c ate ngaun sa pangasinan, super puyat kmi ngayon coz super late n kming natulog, around 2am n kmi natulog dahil sa wlang katapusang kwentuhan with matching chipz, knowing n ppunta kmi ng sementeryo bkz.. haha.. sori ma ;p hihi.. pero ako kaya koh nman gumising ng maaga coz early riser ako.. may gnuN?? hehe.. sooo.. i woke up around 6am kc c papa ginising dn ako pra mgng alarm clock nla ate, kumain at naligo na then around 8am ngsing n c ate nd d rest pra mg-prepare n rn pra pumunta ng sementeryo.. on our way to the sementeryo, ok lng, gnun p rn, super ma-bato at mainit p rn.. haha..

super sabi c papa sa binili nlang orchids for mama, i-yabang b?? haha.. tpz ng-hire dn kmi ng mag-pi2nta ng place ni mama, kya medyo tagal mode kmi dun, papa choose blue nd white (ATENEO)! haha.. hbng pinapatpz ung painting effect, and dming mga ngng topic.. haha.. balak nmin bumili nung "LITTLE MISS SHIRTS", pero di nmin alam if mgppgawa kami ky neil or hndi.. hihi.. la lng.. kc mas cute ata kung dun n lng mismo s manila ung nga lng di gnun k-personalized compare ky neil, i choose little miss blue eagle, little miss bella ky ate tpz c mau little miss waffubet (sna tma spelling ;p) hihi.. tpz may nakita din kming wafu nd we made a codename "ALEJANDRO" kc png-pocketbook ang drama nmin knina.. haha.. infairness pero wafu tlga kc naka-polo p eh.. haha.. tpz bsta ;p la lng, la kcing magawa knina tpz cya lng ang wafu dat tym, may nakita dn kmi, ung alejandro ni mau pero mas okey ung alejandro nmin ni ate.. haha..

nung asa house n kmi, we rest ng konti tpz we went na sa palengke kc sunday is palengke day sa aming munting tahanan, before we went, ngpunta muna kmi sa bank ni ate to withdraw money and super haba ng line, dagdag n rn kc ng super ka-epal ng mga nka-line, msyado cla amfufu.. haha.. tpz nung papunta kmi ng palengke super duper init and traffice p (ano toh manila?) pero ok lng ky ate kc we saw "HOMER" riding sa pedicab! haha! sa lahat p ng mkkta nmin db?? bdtrp! pero c ate masaya.. wafu dw.. ewww.. haha.. peace ;p umiwas n nga koh agad pero c ate tumingin p.. psawy.. pero ang cute ni homer kc nakasakay sa pedicab.. haha..

pgdting sa palengke, super saya nman khit sobrang init at dmi ng tao, not to mention, ung mga mata2ndang na may ksamang mga bata na mali2it, dag2 sa traffic! hmp! uMmm.. ayun, super tawad nmin sa mga tindera at super bongga ang mga binili nmin, may tilapia, tuna fish, pusit, galunggong, vegetables, fruits, eggs, ham at longganisa tpz sa grocery nman, we bought chicken, beef, porkchop, at mga basic ingredients sa paglu2to.. pluz cornetto p pla.. yummy! haha.. inafairness, nakaya nmin ni ate na dalhin un ha.. GIRL POWER! haha.. nkkpgod pero msaya tlga khit super pawis n kmi, nkktwa p kc ngpunta p kmi sa pnka-dulo ng palengke kc we taught na may sitaw dun, actually ako confident n meron tlga, un pla mga flowers ang nandun! haha.. super tawa n lng kmi ni ate sa kalokohan n nangyri kc ang lau ng magic dun sa pinuntahan nmin knowing na mabigat mga dala nmin..

around 12 na kmi nakauwi nd super luto n n ng masarap na nilagang baka, nood muna ng asap, kc birthday special ni ENCHONG koh! haha.. ang gwapo nya and i saw his parents na medyo gulat ako kc... wla lang ;p haha.. prang di kamukha ni enchong, msydo clang simpleng tignan compare sa mga luho n meron c enchong koh.. super sayaw cya with his group and katorse cuties pero ang pnka-gwpo p rn c enchong koh.. haha.. around 2pm na kmi kumain nd nasarapan kami tlga pero syempre denial c papa, may galit effect kc late dw msyado kumain ng lunch.. haha.. after ni ate kumain, umalis na cya.. huhu.. nkklungkot kc aalis nnman c ate pero bblik s brthday ni papa, nkkmiz lng tlga may katabi sa kama.. hihi.. solo flight nnman ako.. hayz!

after nun, i did my daily activities sa sunday, naghugaz ng plates and naglaba, after nun, around 3:30pm we went sa libsong kc brthday ni tito rey, nkktwa nga kc sktong plabas kmi ng gate, nkta nmin ung van n dun nksky cla ate.. sayang di nmin naabutan.. hayz! sarap ng handa, may pansit, bibingka at ice cream! pwede n.. haha..  konting kwentuhan tpz umalis na kc we will go sa church pa, nung asa church kmi, medyo inaantok ako pero happy nman kc magulo kmi pero hndi magulo na mali h, ngttwanan lng pero nsa place.. hihi.. andun dun ung mga BNB sisters, cla ung ngng assistants ng priest.. we saw their parents dn n super proud.. nakz!

pag-uwi nmin, nood ng tv tpz kumain n rn ng dinner, around 9pm, ngbigay ung asawa ni kuya peter ng malagkit, i don't knw the name eh.. haha.. thank u poh.. hihi.. tpz ngaun i'm eating hot nd spicy pancit canton! yahooo!!! thankz pla ate sa blessings! luv u! luv u!

luv yah guyz! stay happy!
happy all saints day
nytie!

yup! suki tlga kmi ng mga bagyo kht kelan.. haha..

diz morning la nmn msyadong effect ung bagyong santi, ngpalaba p nga ako eh.. whaha.. the weather is gud nd dpt lng kc uuwi cla ate, okie nmn kht medyo la msydong mgwa ng haus.. nood ng tv nd kulitan sa mga kapatid pra mwala ang katamadan, un nga lng kung tlga mswerte k, patay-sindi ang kuryente, tma b nman un?? hayz! kaya ayun, we spend diz day in our unique ways n lng.. haha..

dhil din dun, we decided to have burger party ulit.. hehe.. un nga lng medyo parating n ata c bagyong santi kc umuulan n, when we are in the grocery store knina, umuulan n pero hndi nman gnun panic mode mga tao kc panay candles tlga ang binili.. hahaha.. may gnun?? tska ang naka2iniz tlga kpg umuulan is ung putik, at ang dulas p ng daan, kainis! buti hndi mabigat dala koh.. hihi..

medyo sad din kc hndi n ata tlga ppsok c gagay next sem, ala n kng younger sister, i mean i have pero mwwalan n koh ng kinakapatid.. hayz! drama b?? pero alam koh ppsok yn.. ang gulo mo lola! haha..

we watched MMK ulit while waiting for ate, kaya takutan mode.. haha.. wla dn kc c papa, may inuman portion kila lola, bumili dn kmi ni red ng chipz pra mmya, naglakad hnggang bayan and super saya cya, kc malamig eh and ayun prang nkita koh ulit c "toot", knowing n ala nman cya d2.. hayz! pwede b? haha.. m-feeling nnmn lola nyo.. tpz pgdting nmin, ngluto ng pansit canton.. weeee..  walang tigil tlga ang kainan kpg alang psok, ttba ulit ako nito.. haha..

See you soon ate

muahz!